Sometimes we just try too hard, lose the joy of the project and generally annoy everyone including ourselves in the process. What I found this week, when this was definitely the case for me, is that truly surrendering was the answer. I just began meditating and I encouraged myself to imagine that I was floating effortlessly. Once I was able to allow all my muscles to unclench, I just said to myself and the Universe, ” I surrender, it is in Your Hands”. I felt such immediate peace–something that had been in scarce supply for several weeks.
I allowed myself to relax, to float around in my mind and began to feel a huge wave of hopefulness come rushing to the surface of my being. I was honestly surprised because I had been holding onto a feeling of powerlessness for several days. I began to really trust that what I needed to happen would happen without any further effort on my part. I just needed to let down my need to be in control–oh such a simple thing to say and in these moments such a difficult thing to do. But I did do it, and within an hour the miracles began unfolding and gratitude exploded in my body. Everything that had not been working, began to work. Relationships were easy, communications were effortlessly clear, and I was still relaxed. The things that I had been trying to do –pounding away at for days and days–simply began happening.
I would love to say that the next time I am banging my head against a wall endlessly, I will remember this experience, and I might. But in any case I am pretty sure one of my dear friends will remind me if it is needed. And I will ask myself ” to let go and let God”, knowing that my heart has already said all that it needed to say and the Universe is well able to handle things from here.
